| It's been a while |
[May. 16th, 2006|09:24 pm] |
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It's been a while since i've last seen you. And I still love you. After all this time. You are the sweetest thing. And this makes me bitter. |
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| If..... |
[Mar. 28th, 2006|05:49 pm] |
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If I die, will you come to
my funeral?
Or will nothing matter, anymore. |
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[Mar. 17th, 2006|12:31 pm] |
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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.. everyone basically... |
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[Mar. 14th, 2006|12:14 pm] |
Totally Lost.
God. Fuck. That's all I really have to say about today. Wel, not really. I didn't want to come to school. I only came to film our silent movie, but then... there's no Aly. And I dressed in black for this. My parents won't let me do that usually so I'm just hoping. And that's not bothering me. What's bothering me is that I don't really know what... What is going on I really feel.... Excluded. Sometimes. I don't Like Who I used to Like But Who I USED to Like. God. Brandon couldn't make me feel worse. Make me feel like I'm the worst person ever. And nothing matters. He ahs to go telling people that don't even know me that I'm annoying. I feel suicidal once again. LOL. That'a a happy thought. Cyanide.. lol. Anyways. Life goe on, but it feels like I'm not in this life. FUCK IT. FUCK IT. FUCK IT.
Many fish in the sea, i just can't catch any cause my net broke. |
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| some things just shouldn't be..... |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|06:42 pm] |
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.................... Meow. All roads lead to New Jersey........
All roads lead to Rome,
But not mine.
Rome isn't right for me.
My roads lead to New Jersey.
But only to be back with you.
THe only one that really knew....
And although I've never been to Jersey.
My heart was born there.
Because that's where you'll always be.
Because that's where I met you in my other life, or
Was that only in a dream?
and do you exist only in my mind.
I'd love to put you behind, but...
Altoguh you can't see this,
And wouldn't Anyways...
This IS for you.
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Nothing really I just needed to write that..... and i don't get it either.. and I wrote it.. haha... funky today?
I saw a truly amazing sight. And it's my dirty little secret.. KOGA. LOL. |
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| I still don't know..... tabtab |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|11:34 am] |
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This week has been absolute hell. The truth being told. Home life is pretty boring. Dear God, how i wish I could go out. All i can really do is "help my mom" get money from my dad(not bad) and sleep. Maybe do homework. If i have any. I don't know why, but lately Ive been stressing. Stressing like hell. I don't even know why. In the back of my mind something is up. i'll figure it out whhe it's way too late. I just have a feeling a lot of bad things are gonna happen tomorrow and today. I know I sound really negative, but it's true. Not a lot of good things have been happening. What started this little bad luck spell? I believe I should blame myself. But then again I always do and it still doesn't help. Who else can carry the world... Please. I need my own personal hero..... Ramblings... how fun......... Not for anyone that started readingthis. I can't imagine anyone that interested. I mean, people have resorted to the state of apathy. My mom is "homesick." I don't get it. My dad's really mad at me. I haven't done anything wrong, except a simole burn. My dad that day punished me with grounding me for a year. Now he's not gonna give me any money. And I can't listen to music. And i can't stay home alone. And I have to do things i didn't know I would ever do. I hve no money and have to pay for my own stuff. No Phone. No internet. Let freedom ring. Yeah I'm really gonna be able ot enjoy my adolescent years.
Someone called the color purple... a "fagish" book. They didn't even really know about it. That really pissese me off. Its a great book.... ggrrrrrrrrrrrrr........ no one should read this and i don't think anyone wants to..... |
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[Mar. 1st, 2006|08:01 pm] |
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well. Life has been difficult... I can only say this...I don't understand what is happenign lately. Like andrew sais.. lies secrets deception.... all around... and i can only catch a glimpse of what is said.. God -not Pyro- help me. |
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| IDK... |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|10:37 pm] |
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IDK many things, but I do know some... Someday you will be loved.... Anyways.. liking Andrew is not good. Because now he knows.. because of this stupid thing on his site, that was fake... and yeah. How does life feel...? Well, I DON"T KNOW. Tomorrow is gonna rain.. so I'll want to walk to school.... IDK.. seems like a good idea.. |
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